The adoption rollercoaster definitely has its ups and downs! Apparently Dani was having second thoughts over the Thanksgiving holiday. I had a feeling that she was - there goes that ESP again. Matt was pretty upset that she was thinking of raising the baby with her current boyfriend. But as of a couple days ago when I talked to her, she was back on track with the adoption. Hopefully she stays that way through the baby's birth. I know she would do her best to raise the baby well, but I worry about how hard it would be for her. I think she realizes that Matt's not going to give up his rights to her current boyfriend and that he really does want contact. So that gives weight to the adoption decision. We really like both birth parents but we haven't met the boyfriend yet. It seems like if he wasn't in the picture everything would be a lot more clear cut for Dani. He, being much older than her, talks about marriage and wanting her to keep the baby. But right now he can't support them, so I'm not sure if he's really thinking rationally. I think he's in love and doesn't want to see his girlfriend hurting, which she is right now. I can't imagine the pain she must be feeling.
Anyway...Dani's assuring me that she's still choosing adoption, but this is definitely a rollercoaster ride. She's really being open and honest about her feelings, so I get to hear a lot of her ups and downs. That's good and bad. We're still trying to prepare like we're getting a baby in six weeks, but there are definitely no guarantees.
Milk stored: 250 oz
Pumping 16 oz/day